I wanna take it nice and slow...

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:21:24 GMT

Ah.

Me and josh are good.

I guess i was in a bad mood all week last week.

Ah, something happened yesterday that brought me so effin close to josh like no other. I am so in love with this boy. And you cant tell me no different. he is my first love and i will keep him for as long as possible.

I cant wait to see him, but, i have to wait until tomorrow. :(

I love him so much.

Goin to go buhbye
Later dayz

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 14:55:25 GMT

Me and Josh have been argueing a lot lately.

Mostly because school started. And all the girls are tryin to get us to break up.

So yea, I am worried. Alot worried.

He is my first real "love" and i dont want to lose it just yet.

The girl. I am not goin to say the name. (but she is super ugly) She is tryin all possible to get us to break-up. And i swear i wanna slit her throat.
Yaya. Woot.

Hmm.

Well, i must go.
We are goin tubing today. not me and josh. lol. I dont even know where he is.

Later Dayz!

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 02:52:45 GMT

FOR ALL YOU GIRLS.
FROM A GUY WHO POSTED IT ON MYSPACE.

"Stop being so hard on yourselves. I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... becaues it's our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, huge boobs, round ass, long legs, big lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have to live up to your, I'm sorry, our... deluded fantasy visions of perfection. Stop acting like boys and start being men... realize that women don't exist to fufill our sexual desires. Stop talking to them solely to get with them, be nice to them because you want to be their friend, not because you want to hook up with them. Say nice things about them not to flatter them in hopes that you'll get some, but because you know they like to hear them. In short... we need to grow up and stop being dicks... just because we have them doesn't mean we need to think with them."

Thank you for one man who finally saw what they were doing..

I love you all.
And I love you Josh.
You treat me like a princess.
Even when i wanna treat you like a king :)

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 18:37:48 GMT

So me and Josh are so still together :)

I found out I am in love.

He treats me with so much respect. He doesnt pressure me or suggest anything I wouldnt want to do.

He loves me for me not for my body. Like a lot of guys.

I so fell for this one. This is true love. Not something i have in my head.

We had a long talk last nite that reassured me of a lot of things.

I am glad that I am able to talk about anything around him.

Ugh.

Lol.

School starts thursday. I am dreading it.

The shopping is fun though :)

I have band practice Tonite I so dont wanna go. I was suppose to go fishin with baby today but nope band.

Well, we went camping and I had a blast. I spent everyday with Josh. And it was wonderful. :)

Ugh.

I am goin to go.

Later dayz

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 16:22:53 GMT

Wow, okay been a super long time.

Me and josh are together. And i dont know if we are counting that break-up. If we are it has been 7 days we have been dating...If we arent its been a month and 5 days lol.

I am so glad we are together.

We got a camper.

We are goin camping on friday at lazy daze hopefully casey can come!

Talk to you lata!

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 14:25:37 GMT

So confused.

So, I am dating Josh right?

Well, we broke up.

Right when we broke up, his bestfriend (jordan) asks me out (which i have had feelings for this guy ever since me and him broke up (not me and josh me and jordan). Confusin I know.

I have got No earthly idea what to do.

Eh.

Well, josh is comin to eat with me and my mamaws today.

Yay.

I have to go.

I lead 1 person to Christ on my mission trip. I was so excited.

Yaya.

)(Brittany)(

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:58:31 GMT

I love him.

Josh you are the best.

And i def. Missed you.

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 02:45:46 GMT

Wow, okay this is awkward.

Me and Adam are done.

I guess I was wrong you something.

But, I have Josh now.

Yes, lol Josh.

He is great. And he is gettin better each day.

He works which is good. Money :).

He is so hyper and cant stay still for 2 seconds. ADHD haha. love him for it.

I went to em's last nite and wow was it weird. lets just say it wasnt fun.

I still love the girl!

I am guna go.

I AM LEAVING FOR THE BEACH WITH CASEY LYNN CHERRY ON MONDAY!!! :)

Later Dayz

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 01:14:34 GMT

I am so crazy about this guy. Woot.

He makes me smile all the time. i dont care what other people think.

He is great.

Lol, he respects me so much.

Gosh dang.

Adam :)

Okay.

So, i went to bens today and had like a super cool time.

With Ben, Brad, Jimmy, Robb, Adam, and Christy :)

heck yes we are the awesomest people ever!

Swimming haha fun.

Sorry brad for the show.

Wardrobe Malfunction. HAHAH

(totally spelled wrong)

Love yall.

Later Dayz.

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 02:18:05 GMT

I love the rain.

I absolutely love it.

I am goin swimming at ben's tomorrow. Yay.

Then hanging with Adam. YAYA.

Lol. Crazy i know.

I am a dork :)

I love you all.

Later Dayz.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 01:19:06 GMT

Hey yall.

How are ya?

well, i am doing great!

I am actually doing a whole lot better that this guys are outta my life.

Adam is so amazing.

I mean seriously. At first yea. To be honest I didn't think he would be my type. But, man was I wrong. He is a little quiet at times. But, dang. I was wrong. He is absolutely amazing. And, i cant stop thinking about him.

So, today in health. We did Yoga. Then we did this relaxing thing. Hmm. And we had to think of a place you wanted to be right then to get you relaxed.

The weird thing was.

I thought about the top of the world. and tony. yes weird i know.

And i fell asleep. Thinking about tony.

Then my leg jerked and I woke up. Back to reality. haha.

But, Adam. I am def. gettin so close to him. I swear. he is so perfect. :)

later dayz.

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 18:53:36 GMT

I know yall dont care. But, i am writing cause I gota get it out.

Two of the most important guys in my life up and left me this week.

Tiger left. Because, he couldnt trust me or handle my jealousy.

And well big body he effin got pissed cause I am so emotional. So he left.

I dont know. I felt like they were my support. I was doing so good. So happy. I finally had someone liking me for who I am. Two days straight now. Crying. I hate crying. My mom even cried. Ugh. I must be happy.

I swear I will miss them two so much. I will have the next two years seeing one of thems face everyday. Which will be super difficult for me. But, everything has happened for a reason as they all say. Maybe this reason was good.

Later Dayz.

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 23:41:57 GMT

Boys are so confusing.

So me and tony def. not talking at all anymore. he wont even talk as friens. jackass.

Then i met this kid named adam. on tuesday and now i am dating him. haha yes.

So, i am not single anymore.

later.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 00:43:27 GMT

So, today has not been a good day.

First tony calls, and a girl was on the phone. and i was like what the hell and she goes sorry wrong brittany.

Then, Justin comes and picks me up from school and i didnt get home till 430 and mom gets all pissed. eh, who cares

I came home and slept till about 730 i was proud of myself. lol

haha.

Tomorrow i am gettin my hair did. woot.

later.

Sun, 29 May 2005 05:34:15 GMT

I am sitten here at Casey's.

She is asleep, and i am bored.

Well, someone told me to stay outta justins life. So I will. I mean I really liked him so i cant let the feelings that I had for him just disappear like that. It doesnt work that way. I am sorry if I cause any problems though.

Well, I finally got to see Tony tonight. :) I am so happy.

I am tired as crap.

Later.

Sat, 28 May 2005 19:06:52 GMT

Justin went to the Drive-in last nite and there was girls.

Yea i know we arent us anymore, but I still can get jealous right?

Oh, and to top it off. He said he didnt know the girls.

UGH.

Miles was being a butt last nite. But, he is always.

Tony, is still i n trouble.

I spent the nite with Emily last nite, me and casey.

I hung out with a black guy named JP. Funny.

I was right next to tonys house, i was gunna go by and say hey until I remembered he was in trouble.

But, I am goin to go.

Wed, 25 May 2005 01:54:58 GMT

Everythings gone bad today.

Me and justin are DEF. done. I am not kidding this time. I found out some stuff day which i am sitll cryin over.

Mom like hates him now also.

Tony got in more trouble.

And mom made me pissed.

Volleyball sucks.

I just wanna cry all effin night.

Ugh.

Sun, 22 May 2005 22:33:09 GMT

Aaron,
The cutest guy you will ever meet.
He barely hits 5 feet.
Buzz cut and cute voice.
He always knew how to make you laugh.
We thought we would go through Highschool together.
But, his dad got a knew job.
It was sudden and he has to move.
Friday night i went to a party.
To find him and his bestfriend.
Mark came to me when they were leaving.
"You know aarons goal before he moves?"
"No, why? What is it?"
"He wants to have his first kiss with you"
He walked out the door with one last word.
Goodbye is all I heard.
Two days before me and aaron made a promise.
Right when we get out of highschool.
We shall find eachother.
Move next to eachother.
And spend the rest of our lifes friends forever.
I never knew the true feelings until know.
That one cute kid could ever have.
For one messed up kid like me.

Ugh. I am so goin to miss you aaron. Its not even funny how much. We have to spend time together before you leave. I love you dearly. We have to follow up with our promise to eachother. You Better not forget me.

Tony.
With one good arm he still would smile.
He'd drive like a maniac on the road.
Beep his horn at no one he knows.
Ride with his music as load as it could get.
But, still have time to stop by and say hi.
To make me laugh until i cried.
Thursday night I did not know.
Would cause so much pain.
I got attached to this guy so fast.
I didnt know I would have to say goodbye like this.
Navy, is all he thinks.
4 months gone without his friends.
"I gotta get outta here"
Is what he says.
But, does he ever think of how i feel.
He promised to see me before he went.
And when he came back.
We shall be together.
But the truth is.
I know he will forget.
About me, and who i am.
I will miss him terribly.
I am not ready to say goodbye.
When i just said hello.

Tony, ugh. What a great guy. Ask anyone. they should know since i talk about him all the time. I just wish he would choose something different besides the navy. 3 years with him gone gives him and me enough time to forget. I just cant believe I have to say goodbye when i just said hello.

Later Dayz

Sun, 22 May 2005 00:31:21 GMT

So long.
Tonite answered the question.
We have nothing.
Nothing at all.
Tonite I will pretend nothin has gone wrong.
When mom asks me how he is.
I will say nothing but.
alright i guess.
To me you were great.
and such a good kisser.
but i must find someone else.
Fightin is not my thing.
so please leave it alone.
but damn baby.
16 girls seem to much for temptation.
expecially after soem drinks.
have fun.

Everyone knows who that is to.

Well, I went to alyssas and hung out with tony thursday :)

Last nite i went to emilys and hung out with a buncha people.

Now i am here.

yaya

later dayz

Tue, 17 May 2005 02:08:12 GMT

Time has gone by
Another day without your kiss
Another excuse on the phone
I want to know whats happened?
Are we forever forgotten
Or just a little lost.
Is the love you felt for me still there
Or has it faded away?
Tell me cause I need to know
I dont want to be left alone
Tonight my mind wonders
Whats going on?
Its 10:03
You said youd call
I have my phone off
Because I am scared of the lies
I wanna hold you in my arms tonight baby
I wanna kiss you and tell you i love you
But, I must dream one more night away
And maybe tomorrow will bring a brighter day
I love you with no doubt
I just dont know how
I need my questions answered
Truthfully

Tue, 10 May 2005 21:12:20 GMT

I like the way you look at me and stare into my eyes..
And the way you hold me in your arms..
I like how you are not afraid of what your friends might say when they hear you calling me baby..
I love those long kisses i used to always get..
I know its my fault we havent been together..
But, I also dont know what to do..
Stay and wait..
Or move and run to another one..
I can't get you outta my head..
But, i also cant get the fact you still got one waiting for you..
You told me she cried when you told her you couldnt see her..
I wish i was her sometimes..
Maybe i would be in your head more often..
When i kissed another guy..
You and the words "dont do it" popped into me head..
"I love you" is what i hear every night..
But I still dont know if its true..
Or if you are just tryin to feel in a hole that she left empty..
I want you to know..
I have fallen hard and I dont wanna get up..
But, if i have to i will..
I love you

Mon, 09 May 2005 00:38:35 GMT

Today is not a good day.

Let's just say everyone is fucking pissin me off and i am goin to cry.

Yup. Justin and Tony.

First tony gets mad cause black guys i was hangin out with today saw the text he sent me with him callin them niggers. and they called tony and threating him and its all bad.

Then Justin was like damn, i wasted 30 minutes of my gas to pick youra ss up and take you home. And i was like well if it was klarissa it wouldnt have been wasted..and he goes thats different though. I aint even talking to him anymore.

So, to both of you it was fun while it lasted. I am sorry I piss yall off. Tony i am sorry i have black friends. Justin I am sorry that i actually had feelings for you forever but you still had them for klarissa. And i was stupid for waiting and actually hoping we had something. Tony, i love you so much and thursday was fun. I wish we coulda hung out more cause you always i knew how to make me laugh. So long i am outta your life.

Ugh.

Laidher..((tony))

Later

Later Dayz

Sun, 08 May 2005 17:58:41 GMT

Six Flags was okay.

We rode one ride..cause they guys in our group wanted to do freaking arcade stuff..which none of them won anything..and i am the only one that won 3 things :) Miles i totally beat you fair.

I Spent the nite with emily on thursday and got to see tony :) hehe.

okay thats it.

Wed, 04 May 2005 20:20:11 GMT

Nuthin has happened.

I am still alone..Havent talked to Justin in two days and it feels awkward.

My mom *retard that she is* thought she was doing good when she took my phone with her cause she thought i left it at home and that i would need it. Well, I had left the phone there because i forgot to charge it last nite and it was dead..ugh i got so mad at her.

I saw mr. joey whitehead today. he waved and yelled Nitzband out his window..hm real attractive. I hear he is talking to Brettany Mcnally now a days. (ugh how i wish i could warn her about him but we arent the greatest of friends)

My brother has friends over..but i cant tell if he is hot or not..they are watching a movie.

Retro was kinda boring. I met this hot guy named Cody though. Kaley thinks he looks like he has uh downsyndrome. (spelling?) Haha i swear he is freaking hot.

I met this kid named Clay yesterday at the ballpark. I dont know him that much, just he is 16 skater dude with a lip ring. He called me. At least i got to talkt o one guy last nite..haha he goes to heritage. Yep another Heritage boy. I cant see myself with him though. I still got my eye on justin.

Six flags is saturday.

I am spending the nite with Emily tomorrow :)

Maybe I will get to see *him*.

I am goin to the ballpark tomorrow wth emily..probably a pretty late nite there.

Later dayz

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 14:21:31 GMT

Sorry I havent updated..

Me and Casey talked it out and we are good now.

She got her braces :) She looks adorable

Justin came over on wednesday I had fun..i really missed him..(but we are still on a i can see other guys deal)

Volleyball team started last at the tournament and we made it to 2nd :)..hehe

I spent the nite with kaley last nite. I fell asleep early.

Today, i have to pack for retro..I might watch the incredibles first.

hmm, i will tell you how it goes.

later dayz

P.S. I am still waiting.